Our daughter was murdered. She had been a very strong-willed girl who read many fantasies and then went out to live them. We don’t know why a career thief killed her, but we do know she’s no longer with us. Since then, I have met many others who have lost their children. Some seem to be grieving for years, while others undertake projects that their son had started.
Our house was divided by his false accusations against me, his father. His life was falling apart and he found a counselor who suggested that his father should be blamed. It worked. She found some who believed her and the divorce wrecked our house.
So my job ended when my company was sold. I found inexpensive rooms and proceeded to do the one thing I had promised I would accomplish: Memorize the 678 verses of the BRAND GOSPEL. This kept me feeding on eternal truths and gave me great satisfaction when I recited it 20 times in different places. It was work that produced faith for myself and others.
Today I ask three questions: Will I continue to be close to those who value me and show joy when they appear? How can I use my story to help others find meaning in their lives? And will not the Judge of all the earth do good? A minister commented that I navigated through the tragedy. I affirm that my victory is based on my eternal Father.
Before losing my home, I had taught that the blood in your veins is not as important as the faith in your heart. In other words, the spiritual family is the one that decides our destiny, not the biological one. But then I didn’t know that they would test me so severely at this point.
God also had his son murdered and forgave him. I read this good news and receive help from the Holy Spirit to do the same. What a way to live: allow free will and good and bad will happen. God is so good that He allows evil plans to be carried out. And I rejoice in my ability to live an abundant life. I choose not to enter the darkness of bitterness and revenge.
I drink from the springs of living water, the teachings of Jesus Christ, and my soul sings. We know that if we love someone, we will feel great pain when we are broken. I am in awe of my God who was able to stop all the pain that people bring into their existence by stopping loving us. But all of creation is a testimony to the fact that God is LOVE. See how it has brought so many pleasures to our senses and our thoughts. He has invested so much of himself in us that he stands on tiptoe to see if anyone shows any interest. What a patient God!
I finally learned that I love teaching, preaching, and SINGING biblical truths. My great search for the Supreme Truth led me to remember that Christ said: “I am the Truth.” So I moved our family to our grandparents’ house while I was attending seminary.